I question God.
April 26, 2009
Real? Existent? I don’t quite think so.
Before I begin, I should reiternate my religious status – I am agnostic. I DO believe there may be a God. Sure, why not? Anything is possible. But is THE God real? That’s another matter altogether.
From discussions this week in my science and religion classes, other students have proposed the idea that God is all good and all knowing. He’s a saint. A dear at heart. He can’t created evil within our world. He has just allowed humans free will. And from that, we humans have condemned the fate of evil on ourselves. Absolutely not God’s fault.
But I say, how ISN’T it his fault? If God was all knowing, then he should’ve KNOWN that he was creating a kind of animal who could enforce such evil into the perfect world he made. Is this not contradictory then, that he has done this and yet still is considered all good? Does this make God not as fantastically pure and happy happy as we all thought he was to be?
Another thing. Jesus. If God was all good, and lovely, and a darl; why in the WORLD would he create a man – his own son for that matter, and send him to his death? Why mould a being to be killed by its kind? Yes, Jesus was born and sacrificed to clear others for their sins. But in doing so, God would’ve condemned a man to pain and suffering! How is God then considered the wondered being he is? How can he sit back and watch his son be nailed to a cross!
If I were God, I would’ve just discreetly forgiven everyone’s sins. Rather than bothering to put a man in pain just to prove my point that I’m here, watching their every move.
Yet another thing. If God was supposedly wanting to be discreet about his influences on our world – the butterfly effect, why would he allow religion to exist? Why be discreet on what he does, yet have people be educated about him and have us humans know of his existence?
I question God. I question his way of working his magic. I question his existence. I question all these contradictions that occur in regards to a being that’s supposed to be perfect!
Maybe this is why I can’t stand to believe in a single god. There is no way I cannot question their methods. I am a believer of the existence of Gods. But I’m not a believer of God’s existence.